Crazy has left the building...

I took a big leap yesterday. I have been toying around for years with my emotional state and blaming my constant anger, frustration, sadness, happiness, goofiness on who I am and just accept it. But over the last few months I have realized that this constant state of emotional flux may be greatly due to circumstances I just can't wrap myself around. I have tried a myriad of medications. Some good, and some not so good. I have tried homeopathic creations, self created concoctions, and still have not made it over the mental hurdle.

With my stress needle hovering perilously close to red...I decided to take action and am now after doing the mambo with my insurance company taking some medication.

I am nervous, is this the answer?

Being on medication is causing me anxiety so hopefully it is the right choice for me. My even bigger fear - the side effects. Weight gain or loss, hopefully the latter. Lower sexual drive, can't go much lower so maybe it will go back up? Reverse psychology right? All in all every drug has its share of side effects, but if I can not feel like my heart is beating out of my chest or rage that could take over like the Incredible Hulk, its a great day for me, and especially those who have to live with me.